Instagram, I want my life back.

Spectrum

Anna writes a diary: Day one "from psychosis and hallucinations"

I'm never safe, because they're everywhere I look at. They laugh at me, they laugh at what they did to me, what I became.
They know I'm in pain, they know I'm alone and they know I'm vulnerable. They know it, they do know for sure. 

I don't want to ever leave my house, but I have to, then I'm very sorry I did. 

Why can't they leave me alone! Go away! Stop standing on my way! 

I'm sick of your faces, I'm so sick of you, all of you. 

PS: I made this on the back of a non-catholic bible. I thought it was pretty accurate as I don't know what to believe anymore.

END

"Let them know how does it feel to die" 

These are some rough images from a project I've been working on.

Para un corazón roto

¿Han sentido que el corazón se incendia siendo víctima de una tragedia?

      Yo sí. Cada mañana, despierto  y despierta conmigo la tortura más cruel, la más siniestra. El recuerdo de aquellos momentos de lánguida felicidad que viví al roce armonioso del sol carente que profundizaba el ligero toque de bronce en su cálida piel.

       No importa qué tan despierta esté por la mañana, aún tengo visiones y mis sueños fantásticos aún me pasan con claridad en algún sitio de mi subconsciente. Respiro hondo, lentamente y las lágrimas humedecen mis ojos que mueren por dejar de llorar.

       Si puedes seguir mintiendo, puedes seguir viviendo y, así hasta que tus vacíos días hayan concluido. Y aunque no debí, dejé de vivir.

Last Day of Winter - Anna Sainz

Home is wherever your heart is

Most of the people spend their lives waiting up for the moment when they can finally break free from their parents and start living up on their own. It's amazing but I'm about to celebrate the sixth year since I moved out my parent's. And I've been through a lot. Trust me, I could actually write tons of novels just based on my adventures. And people would actually read them, I guess.

Recently, I thought to myself it's the perfect time for me to redecorate my house. I'm still dreaming of moving to a wide and very illuminated-white apartment, but I also kind of really like it here. The neighborhood is cool and very peaceful and quiet. And I just fall for that. Plus, Sirius and I we both have enough space to be very comfy all the time.

I'm very excited because, my house is going to be also my new office, and I can't just explain how merry happy I am. I never thought I'd happen! So I had to do some research of fresh ideas and stuff that could get me inspired because I do not possess any virtue to decorate spaces.

And... These are so far some of the images that really captivated me. Home inspo...

Loving the AK detail. Couldn't be any more accurate.

Back from the land of the dead and lost souls

It feels really weird to be writing back on this blog. I had a lot to tell but had not even the slightest itchy of motivation to do so. Truth is, I've been having probably the worst and the most painful phase of my entire life. Not that I've lived for centuries, but you know what I mean.

So, I first thought I was never ever ever ever ever evuh posting anything again, but here I am. I've got the feeling that it'd be very nice to keep sharing my adventures and my crazy stuff to my beloved ones.

MID DESIGN

Through the week

Hello folks. It's been quite a week for me so I barely had time to come up with good pictures to share. Truth is I've been trying hard to dwell up with lots of troubles going on right now in my crappy life and I'm just waiting for them to vanish or to get solved someway or another. I'm really being as positive as I can, because it makes me feel better even if I'm totally and completely screwed up.

Gotta make it stop. Won't complain anymore and I'll tell you what I learned through this week.

Haters gonna hate

Food is your friend, not your enemy

Exercise makes you happy 

Your friends are never letting you down

Museums are pure love

A bloody machine can tell exactly who you are *CREEPY

Don't get too frustrated about not getting perfect grades. 

TRY HARDER TO GET THEM 

I'll never stop missing my mom. Even if it's childish I feel like I need her presence to keep me from falling. I can't wait to see her! 

Doesn't matter how bad your haircut was, remember hair grows out again. anna sainz

You can always learn how to dance like Ok Go. 

Your best friend's spaghetti is the best! 

It's not a sexy friday until you do something reckless.

And books are better than a relationship